DECISION POINT
THIS WORK LOOKS TO ENCAPSULATE THE WHIRLWIND OF THOUGHTS AND EMOTIONS INHERENT IN ANY BIG DECISION THAT WE MAKE. THAT INNER TURMOIL IS MADE TRANSPARENT FOR ALL TO SEE.
Decision Point was my final major piece for my Foundation course and took around 3 months from start to finish. Within this project I wanted to explore the last 2 years of my previous role in Fin-Tech. Outwardly successful, generously rewarded and placed in a shiny glass walled office I was to many something to emulate. Meanwhile, internally I struggled with finding the motivation to even turn up each day. Something I had been passionate about no longer intrigued me and the nature of larger organisations made even the smallest incremental change often difficult to achieve. Personally driven by change and getting things done I was in a glass prison up to my neck in inertia desperately seeking a way out.
That way out took a while to find and the decision making process up to that micro-second when I decided to walk away was convoluted, complicated and potentially hazardous. I went back and forth having numerous discussions with people I respected ...and some I didn't. When looking back and thinking upon this from an artistic perspective it became apparent to me that I could clearly discern the decisions I had made but I had not operated in a vacuum. It would be naive to think I had made this decision without the assistance of external events and influences. Some of these I was keenly aware of but others I wasn't, never did understand or only became aware of later. So for me the 'decision point' became where the known and the unknown converged: a meeting of events, thoughts and actions that ultimately spawned a decision to leave an organisation I had known and helped build over a 10 year long career.
That way out took a while to find and the decision making process up to that micro-second when I decided to walk away was convoluted, complicated and potentially hazardous. I went back and forth having numerous discussions with people I respected ...and some I didn't. When looking back and thinking upon this from an artistic perspective it became apparent to me that I could clearly discern the decisions I had made but I had not operated in a vacuum. It would be naive to think I had made this decision without the assistance of external events and influences. Some of these I was keenly aware of but others I wasn't, never did understand or only became aware of later. So for me the 'decision point' became where the known and the unknown converged: a meeting of events, thoughts and actions that ultimately spawned a decision to leave an organisation I had known and helped build over a 10 year long career.
